i am losing faith. not my faith. faith in humanity. with so much hypocrisy and politics...its hard to find the truth in anything or anyone for that matter. im becoming a cynic....(chrissypoo)...sad but true. i suppose i became a cynic a long time ago. the optimistic-theres-good-in-everyone-you-only-have-to-find-it girl is so long lost to me i wonder if she ever really existed....

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i got so pissed about work last night that i finally put in my app for american express and called LB and said i had a migraine....today of all days when the corporate guys are coming in for a "visit". (ok so they put me on the schedule AFTER i said not to.....and it was snowing and i nearly had a wreck coming home....$7/hr isnt enough for that shit!) SCREW YOU ALL, RETAIL NAZIS!!! ha. take that. jerks. ::shakes fist:: well so i feel better and now i am going to sit home on friday night an...

these quizzes where eerilly acurate...... You are Form 1, Goddess : The Creator. "And The Goddess planted the acorn of life. She cried a single tear and shed a single drop of blood upon the earth where she buried it. From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into the world." Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek), Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian). The Goddess is associated with the concept of creation, the number 1, and the element of earth. Her sign...

well, now that i'm gettin toasty, and i just read "The Negotiator's" note and his blog....i've decided to be unoriginal and steal his idea. i'd like to fill you in on MY life and give you a list of characters, so you can all keep track. CHUBBY HUBBY : not just my fave ice cream anymore......yup, i live with my fiance. things are a little rough right now but i do love him. SMASH : my little sister....just started high school this year and is already giving me gray hairs. ...

well. i forgot to take my meds today, so i just took them with the only thing todrink in the apartment...alcohol. good idea? probably not. do i care? nope. so this sounds like selfpity but if its my only place where i can wallow then so be it. i am sick of being shit on. sick sick sick sick sick sick SICK OF IT. my life is one of despair. what did i do to deserve all this? i have been broken SO many times and i just wish someone could piece me back together. but the only one i want to talk to...

i say lets just cut to the chase. im so unhappy right now. i finally get an idea of where im going and then it falls apart again. i have become EVERYONE'S emotional punching bag. ive had the emotional-shit kicked out of me. i'm hurting and i'm sad. i feel beaten and downtroden and ultimately i hate the world at this moment. thats why i am a broken down princess- everyone thinks im so happy but thats the outside. inside i fall apart each and every day. but no one notices-they are all too busy a...

Ok....lately i have been struggling with an inner turmoil. i have overstepped a boundary in order to be a good friend. i hope i have done the right thing....i have helped and yet hurt a dear friend of mine in one single swoop. she says she forgives me and i believe her, for she is admirable in that sense....i have never met another human being that is so forgiving and innocent and pure, yet true and real to herself....the Goddess has blessed me with such a person to learn from....i only hope our...

Well....this is blog/journal/diary number 3....but here goes. I am doing this merely b/c it is 3 am and I have things on my mind.