i say lets just cut to the chase. im so unhappy right now. i finally get an idea of where im going and then it falls apart again. i have become EVERYONE'S emotional punching bag. ive had the emotional-shit kicked out of me. i'm hurting and i'm sad. i feel beaten and downtroden and ultimately i hate the world at this moment. thats why i am a broken down princess- everyone thinks im so happy but thats the outside. inside i fall apart each and every day. but no one notices-they are all too busy adding to the catalysts that destroy my heart day after wretched day......long live the queen........of pain............