::huge sigh of relief:: i'm so glad you're back in my life!!!! WHEW! uh work was hell today...nathan is bein crazy-again. dont wanna talk about it. dont have much to say. just checkin in i suppose...
As you walk into the room she runs full force into you And her soul fills you to the brim as you hold her, trembling, in your arms. You let her cry For what was only seconds. But to you it seemed like eternity. It’s always eternity with her- For time itself stops…and pauses to drink in your warmth and bask in the glow of your love. Her voice on the other end of the phone Is filled with an emotion So powerful it scared her at first. You didn’t know what it was But you felt the...
::grr:: i am reallly agitated right now. i was out with some friends last night and nathan calls like.....5 or 6 times and among other things says hes left me a present at the apartment. so me and a rather large group of friends head home after awhile and low and behold-there is a balloon animal teddy bear with a heart and poetry written all over him with black sharpee! it said stuff about how i stole his heart, and how he loves me so much and this isnt the end its only the beginning-ALL this...
i broke up with nathan last night. it was hard but it was what I needed to do. i just feel like i'm at a point where i'm starting a new chapter in my life. im growing and i need to do it alone. i feel that if he really loves me he will let me go-and if its meant to be, we'll both grow up and get back together. and if we grow apart, then it wasnt meant to be in the first place. what worries me is that he wont be able to handle just being friends. should i just break it off completely or try ...
i cant be explicit but right now i am really confused. i honestly dont know if nathan is really changing or just acting like it. i want him to change but deep down im a firm believer that people change their actions but not their beliefs. so its hard for me to see him changing(that is if hes trying to change at all) ok and maybe i have trust issues.....but all that tossed in with a friend who has a thing for me makes life one hell of a burden right now....aaaarg!
man what a day! last night was hard cuz nathan left-with all the problems we have, i still love him and it was just hard to sleep by myself after so long. but i got up for work today and life, as they say, goes on. i just wonder where "they" are when the shit hits the fan? so i was at work today helping people pick out clothes and this woman comesa in and shes totally cool and we get aalong really well, then i go to ring her up and check her ID and guess what? she lives on my street! and bei...
...work was hell tonight. what makes people think that they can treat other people like slaves? i work in a clothing store and get paid $7/hr with no commision- and these customers dont even treat me like a person! once again, i hate people...ruh. so, im going through an extremely hardtime right now and cant get ahold of my best friend in PA. it sucks. any prayers from anyone would be appreciated...... ;( Angel Sarah McLachlan spend all your time waiting for that second chance fo...
uh. i hate the whole world. first of all let me vent- immature kids kill me. if you cant get over it-dont be with the person....no one can forgive and forget that shit. raaah!!! ok. sorry.... now i have a real problem. nathans moving out but i cant break the lease. and no one wants to move in with me cuz im in a one bedroom...so im screwed. royally. and i miss chris. im worried about him....
:::sighs::: things are improving one day at a time. nathan and i are still broken up, and im still moving back home, but he started going to a counselor (who happens to be an aquitance of ours). the counselor, marty, has helped open his eyes-he has a whole new attitude. he wants to change...which is a start. i do love him, despite it all, but i am not taking him back. not yet anyway. i have decided that if its meant to be he will follow through with this counseling and really change this time-...
nathan has definately crossed the line this time...ive had it!!! this is what happened- first of all he gets furious when i hang out with my guy friends and he's not there.....so i planned on telling him that i was hanging out with reggie last night....WELL, i got to his work and he feels sick (meaning hes being a huge dick to me and taking it all out on...guess who...me!). so hes going off on me before i can even tell him.....so i get fed up and leave. well....by 1 am he hasnt called and im l...
i wish you were home so we could talk...ive had "across the sea" on repeat for who knows how long.....i need you more than i ever have before, i wonder if you can feel it too...i miss you...my heart aches for you........
i dont even know where to start on this blog........ive been crying for days on end...and i feel like it now but the tears have dried up inside of me. things as i have said, have gotten bad with nathan. but i never said how bad...hes very emotionally abusive. and its gotten out of control. and i may have "battered woman" syndrome but i feel like i cant live without him.....(chrissypoo being the only one who makes me see a glimmer of hope that maybe-just maybe-i can ). but i have made the hard...
after a long winded post on muggaz entry about preachy-ness, i decided i wanted to post the entire article that i quoted. just in case anyone cared... How to Share the Gospel with Pagans by Gwydion For starters, I am not a Christian. I am and have been Pagan (Wiccan in particular) for several years now. So why am I writing this? Because I understand that believing Christians feel they have an obligation to share their religion with others (I was Christian once and participated activel...
i miss you...you know who you are..... Trapt- Echo "Close my eyes Let the whole thing pass me by There is no time To waste asking why I'll run away with you by my side I'll run away with you by my side I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride ," "how i feel 2/22/2004 not really about the same thing......spirit is the same tho." 'Across the Sea'- Weezer You are 18 year...
in response to imajinit's "brilliant" typecasting of the entire female gender....sorry guys...had to....(for those of you who find it closeminded, read imajinit's first, then you will get it...) 1-lets face it ladies-NUMBER ONE-you got guys who talk the talk AND walk the walk ::wink wink:: 2-then there are those who will never live up to your expectations...(is that a pencil in your pocket?) 3-men who arent afraid to cry if its appropriate-like when their dog dies 4-men who cried when cl...