:::sighs::: things are improving one day at a time. nathan and i are still broken up, and im still moving back home, but he started going to a counselor (who happens to be an aquitance of ours). the counselor, marty, has helped open his eyes-he has a whole new attitude. he wants to change...which is a start. i do love him, despite it all, but i am not taking him back. not yet anyway. i have decided that if its meant to be he will follow through with this counseling and really change this time-learn to deal with his feelings. and if he doesnt-well then its not meant to be and i will rise up once more and move on. a resilient spirit is a strong one....