i'm so sad and lonely today. ive been thinking that maybe id like to date someone. i kinda want someone just to hang out with. nothing serious by any means, i know im not ready for that. but someone who cared would be nice.... i'm trying to write my friends history paper and its so hard. i know its wrong but i need the extra cash. the thing is-i usually write english papers-not history! thus im struggling! so im going to go...and try to get this done. and maybe try to smile some too.

ladies and gents today is Beltaine, my favorite pagan holiday. it represents the return of summer -the so called marriage of the Goddess and the sun god. so how would you celebrate? light candles, bonfires, and fuck whomever you please!!! so yes, i fucked this waitor, eric, and it wasnt bad. better than i expected at least. lol. heres one thing you all must understand before you start with the rapid fire-slut attacks: i live my life the way i want to. my world. my rules. **pimptress ...

so i got the job at the ice cream place. and i am dying! these 12 hr days are hell! 6 days a week dude! its just not kosher! i was in a friggin car chase the other night-a truck full of rednecks tried to follow me to my apartment. they didnt know who they were fucking with though...lol. so yeah, i talked to a friend last night from high school for like 4 hours, one i kinda had a crush on but never thought it was reciprocated. turns out it was but now he lives in toronto. life deals you ...

damn. im tired, pissy, hungry: and none of my friends are available. they are all either wasted or working. so instead of going to eat i might just go to darby's and get a little buzz. might put me in a better mood. i cant get too messed up cuz i have to be at work at 11 AM tomorrow....ugh. it was so awful there tonight. i dont want to go back tomorrow! but alas-i must. and after that i have to go to carvel and talk to that guy and see if they will be flexible enough to give me that job. ::si...

ok so ive spend the last three days at myrtle beach. it was gorgeous, i basically babysat my cousins but hey-it was good to be with family. and it was so warm....i got a little color! yay! speaking of tanning, i got a new job before i left on friday! i am now a tanning consultant at Viva La Tan!!! lol. hey-it sounds cool. uh well im tired and have to work both jobs tomorrow and im kind of upset over a comment someone made::cough::marvin::cough:: so im gonna go. love you all. pimptress

ok so yeah-NATHAN is the one telling my mom that im a party animal, that im drinking and smoking-he says hes CONCERNED. i say fuck that. hes fucking jealous-if i had invited him along he wouldnt have cared. hes a vindictive child and im sick of it. i called him and said "WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?" i told him to stay out of my business, to drop my stuff off, and after that nothing. game over. fuck you. click. to make matters worse, my mom is upset cuz shes helping me with money and th...

someone needs to get laid and i vote for ME!!!!! sorry to be so crude, but damn. i need it. and i dont want a relationship...which is bad i know. i just need a booty call. plain and simple. but if its ok for guys to do it then girls can too. im a firm believer in that.